Back in 1974,there was a Very Ugly Crime commited.A Friend of Mine,and I were getting ready to go to a Drive-In Theater to see a New Type of Movie,a Martial Arts Movie,its'Name was "FISTS of FURY",Starring a Chinese Martial Arts Master named "BRUCE LEE".Now,this friend of mine worked on one of the Oil Rigs,about 26miles out in the Gulf of Mexico,and some of the guys on the rig told him,if he get Permission from His Girl Friend,He should try and see the Movie.Well,I was Shooting Pool on Iberville,a block away from Bourbon ST.when he came in,he told me, he had a case of Budweiser on Ice in the Trunk,and when would I be ready to go?I said,I've got $20 bet on the game I was shooting.I just about RAN the Table,and, when I collected my money,I was ready to go.Just as I was coming out,a Body of a Man struck a Parking Meter with his Head,then,the sidewalk.Needless to say,he was Very Dead.I immediately looked up,and then is when I knew something was happening in the Bar above the Bar we were in.The Smoke,Screams,Burning Body Odor,and the complete Surprise of it all just Rocked our Boat.Mike got Sick to his stomach as soon as that burning Body odor hit him,I stepped out to the middle of the street,and looked up,I thought about the War Protester in New York,that committed Sepuku at Times Square.What I was looking at,at that time,out did what happened in New York.The Screams I heard are still with me today.Now,a lot of the people that gathered at Iberville and Royal was Gods'Fury.It just so happened that the Establishment was a "GAY" Bar.When the Fire Department arrived,they had a Hard Time psychologicaly dealing with what they were seeing.The reason so many people were Killed,was,the Burglar Bars that the Owner had installed after being Burglarized Twice,were Permanent Set Bars,meaning, only rather skinny individuals would be able to squeeze through the Bars,just like the Guy that landed at my Feet.Mike and I just walked to his car,and had a few Beers'.I can't remember whether we even said anything to each other.We went back a couple of hours later,I asked one of the firemen if anyone got out Alive? He said,6 people,they had found a Roof Hatch,and apparently got out through it.He asked if I had any Friends that frequented the Bar,I said,No,I was just coming out of the Bar directly beneath the one on fire,when one of the Customers landed just Inches from my feet.There were at least 30to40 People were Dead.At one of the windows he said,they had to use Knives to Cut the Bodys'away from each other,the heat from the Fire,had literally "FUSED" the Bodys'Together.In One Window,they cut away 14 Bodys',it was just like Filleting Fish.When the Arson Squad finished there Investigation,They said, someone had Squirted 10 Cans of Lighter Fluid on the Steps,and lit it,they cut off the only known way out.The Bars in the French Quarter did not have a way out but, the front door.Who ever did it knew what they were doing.In essense,when they lit the Stairs,they signed everybodys'Death Certificates. Well, I am going to Bed. LATER RED

Hey,I'm still here.I think I'm being taken Seriously about My Subject,"STREET LIFE and,DRUGS".I have been asked to Help a TV Station with an Interview on the subject of "METHAMPHETAMINE".When I Stopped all of My STUPIDITY,It never occurred to Me that the Drug(METH),would have such a Re-Emergence as it is now.I have been Searching,since 1980 for a REASON for Me to still be Living.I went back to school to see if my Brain could still Retain Knowledge,and Cope with Society.I am Very Happy that "SOMEONE UP THERE,STILL LIKES ME".When I ACED My First Psych Test,I could'nt wait to get Home and just break down,and Cry,a Very Happy Cry. LATER RED

I just got finished Relating about Stuff in Washington DC.DC is the Place where I was Busted for "CARRYING a DEADLY WEAPON WITHOUT a LICENSE" {GUN}.They did not set any Bail for Me,They just put Me in this Large Dormitory that had 200 Beds in it,I was the ONLY WHITE MAN in the Whole Dorm.At 11pm,It was Lights Out,Well,at about 11:30pm,I was Jumped On,there was 12 Guys that had Something on their Minds besides Sleeping.I have NEVER MOVED as FAST as I did that Night.I literally,RAN across the Bunks,and,Anything,or,Anybody,to get to the Front Gate of That Dormitory.When the Guards Heard all the Comotion,and,Hollering I did,they wanted to know what My Problem was,I said,I am the Only White Guy in here,and,With Hair way past My Shoulders,What Do You Think was on there Minds? When they Realized what I was Talking About,they said,Go get your stuff and,We will put you in a Safer Area.I said,There is Nothing but,a Couple of Cigarettes left in My Pack,They can Have them,Just get Me Out of Here.When this One Guard told Me I should have Stood Up for Myself,I said, Do You See an "S"on My Chest? My Name is ROBERT,Not ROBERTA.Time to get some Sleep. Later RED

I received a Nice Comment from Someone the other Day,and,One of the Questions they asked Me was,In My TUNNEL,had I traveled all over our Country? When I finished answering the Question,A Memory about One of the Towns,Popped into My Head that made Me Laugh.I was Hitchhiking to New York City for the Third Time.In Los Angelos where I was Starting from,I thought I would take the Northern Route.I can say for certain,that was by far the Most Picturesque trip I had ever seen.The Mountains,Planes,Lakes,and,Best of All,The Crisp Fresh Air.I am even having Goosebumps,as I Write about this Incident.When I got into Utah,a Trucker let Me Out on what Appeared to be,the Longest,Straightest,and,Loneliest Highway,I'd ever seen.Well,there was'nt any better thing to do,but,to Start Walking.After about 2miles into the Walk,I spotted a Very Large Bull tied to a Fence,the Rope He was tied to the Fence with, went to a Big Metal Ring in His Nose.He just looked over at Me,and,kept chewing his Cud.I slowly Walked over to Him,and,said,"Hey Big Boy",He just kept Chewing.Since He was'nt showing any Hostility,I walked right up to Him.He kept Chewing,and,I kept Talking,in a couple of Minutes,He moved slowly over to Me,and,Gently Nuzzled My Hands.He was so Darn Friendly,all I could think about was someday,His Owners may Sell Him to the Highest Bidder,and,be Shipped off to a Butchers'Block.After a while I was just standing there,Petting Him just like our Dog back Home.Then,I heard a Car,and,Stuck My Thumb Out,I immediately thought,UH-OH,It was a State Trooper.When He pulled over,I wondered what was going to Happen? He asked Me for a Piece of Identification,I told Him,all I had was My Draft Card,He said, that will do.Then He asked Me,How much Money I had on Me,I said,about $30,but,I had sent some Money to some Friends in New York City.Well,He said,I am Arresting You for Vagrancy,I needed at Least $75 on Me,in the State of Utah.Now,what Happens to Me next will Amaze You,as much as it did Me.He told Me to get in the Front Seat,because,We were going to the only County Judge they had,and, He was 20miles Down the Road.He thought,since I was'nt Acting like a Smart Ass,He did'nt see any reason for Me to be Sitting in the Backseat,after all,it is Very Cramped back there.When We pulled into a Small Restaurant,I thought He was going to get us some Coffee,or,something.He told Me to come with Him,We went through the Backdoor of the Place,He said, Judge,I have a Vagrant here,where do you want Him to Sit? Well,the Man He called "JUDGE",was Washing the Restaurants' Dishes.Then, He reached over and,Picked Up a Long Soup Ladel,He Banged it on the Stainless Steel Counter,and said,Moab City Court,was in Session.I kept REAL QUIET,but,all I could Think About was,what in the Hell was Happening? I even carefully Pinched Myself to see if this was a Bad Dream.Well,it was'nt.He Sentenced Me to 10 Days,or,a $100fine.Since I had only $30,I guess I have to serve the 10 Days.Courts'Adjourned.After the Kangaroo Court,the State Trooper told Me We would be going to Moab,but,We would Eat First.The Dinner was Great to say the least.We had Steak,with Baked Potato,and,a Very Good Cole Slaw,with Coffee.The Trooper said Moab was 3o Miles down the Road directly across from the Judges' Restaurant.When We got underway,He started telling Me about Moabs Jail,it was in the Basement of the Sheriffs'House.The Sheriff was part Apache and,part White,there was One Inmate already in the Jail,He was serving a Six-Month Sentence for being Drunk in the Public,and,Cussing everybody out.This Inmate by the way,was 17yrs.Old.Well,when We got to the Jail,the Sheriff was already Drunk,and,Pretty Damn Mad that the Trooper Messed Up His Evening.He threw the Keys to the Trooper,and,said to put Him in the Cell across from the Kid.When We got Downstairs,the Trooper gave Me a Pack of Cigs.,and,told Me not to Bug the Sheriff,because,when he was Drinking,He did not like being put upon.I told the Trooper not to Worry,Iwas'nt about to say anything.The next Day I gave the Sheriffs One Deputy enough Money to Buy Me a Carton of Marlboro Box Cigarrettes.The Kid across from Me,worked at the Sand Lot a Half Day.The Sand was of the type for Concrete,It was the Main Business that Moab had at that time.The Tourists' did'nt start coming until a Couple Years later,that, Moab became a Famous Place to Film Old West,Cowboy,and Indians Movies.Back to Me and,the Jail,I had done 3 Days when The Sheriff,Half Drunk again,came Downstairs,and,Told Me to get My Stuff Ready because,He was throwing Me OUT.Thats right,"THROWING ME OUT".Then He Made it back upstairs,and,called the Judge to have that Trooper come and,Get Me OUT of His Jail.It took the Trooper about 30 Minutes to get there,but,when He did, He did'nt Waste any Time in getting Me Out of there.Later, He asked Me what I had done to make Him so Damn Mad? I said, NOTHING,I did NOTHING.WhenWe got to the Judges Place,the Waitress,who was the Judges Wife,gave Me a Nice Big Bowl of Lime Sherbet.The Judge told Me that He had Talked to a Trucker about giving Me a ride,He said,Sure,He was going to Denver.I said,that would be Great.I did'nt think I'd Elaborate anymore than that,I was already wondering what People would think when I told them about the Only Memory I had about "MOAB UTAH". LATER RED

I hav'nt done anything for a couple of days,because,I have had so many Memories coming at Me,that,I had not Remembered,or,Did Not want to remember.Since 1980,My Attitude Adjustment,has been a 100% turnaround.It's Very Humbling.When I was watching The Daytona 500 Introduction,The National Guard was Marching Into view with The Colors,and,Had a Good DECENT Singer,do the National Anthem,I Lost It,a Friend of Mine,and,His Wife were all taking it in,when Patty looked over in My direction,and,saw the Tears in My Eyes,She said to her Husband,Oh My God Bruce,Bobby's got Tears in His Eyes.Now,Believe it or Not,That is When I started to Believe I was Seeing LIGHT at the End of that TUNNEL.You See,the One thing You CAN NOT Do on the Streets, is Show that type of Emotion.The Streets are Hard,and, Relentless,there is No Room for HUMAN EMOTIONS,You show You have them, they will come down on You like the World Trade Towers.

The other night I described a Drug Deal Proposition in New York City.I have received some Comments in My e-mail telling Me,that I was Full of B--- S---.One of the Adjustments'I have done,is,No More Lies.I Do Not have a reason to LIE.I am not being PAID to Bare My Past to the Public.There is not One Person,Pardner,Friend,Love Interest,or,Asshole that is ALIVE Today,that I knew Then.The Last One,Ski was His Name,was HIGH on CRANK one night,when,He got involved in a Game He saw on "THE DEER HUNTER".Ski was always doing Crazy Stuff when He got Wired.Speed,always makes a Person think they have an "S" on their Chest,in Ski it meant STUPID.Anyway,back to the situation,He was BETTING $5 a Spin on an Old Detective 38 Special,on His Second Turn,Ski,met His MAKER,about an Inch behind His Right Ear.By the way,to add more Insult to Himself,He,and,Whoever Else was there,it Happened in The Bathroom of The Most Filthy Bar in Hollywood Calif.The Cockroaches even avoided that Bar.It is 11:30PM,I am going to Bed. LATER RED