I received a Nice Comment from Someone the other Day,and,One of the Questions they asked Me was,In My TUNNEL,had I traveled all over our Country? When I finished answering the Question,A Memory about One of the Towns,Popped into My Head that made Me Laugh.I was Hitchhiking to New York City for the Third Time.In Los Angelos where I was Starting from,I thought I would take the Northern Route.I can say for certain,that was by far the Most Picturesque trip I had ever seen.The Mountains,Planes,Lakes,and,Best of All,The Crisp Fresh Air.I am even having Goosebumps,as I Write about this Incident.When I got into Utah,a Trucker let Me Out on what Appeared to be,the Longest,Straightest,and,Loneliest Highway,I'd ever seen.Well,there was'nt any better thing to do,but,to Start Walking.After about 2miles into the Walk,I spotted a Very Large Bull tied to a Fence,the Rope He was tied to the Fence with, went to a Big Metal Ring in His Nose.He just looked over at Me,and,kept chewing his Cud.I slowly Walked over to Him,and,said,"Hey Big Boy",He just kept Chewing.Since He was'nt showing any Hostility,I walked right up to Him.He kept Chewing,and,I kept Talking,in a couple of Minutes,He moved slowly over to Me,and,Gently Nuzzled My Hands.He was so Darn Friendly,all I could think about was someday,His Owners may Sell Him to the Highest Bidder,and,be Shipped off to a Butchers'Block.After a while I was just standing there,Petting Him just like our Dog back Home.Then,I heard a Car,and,Stuck My Thumb Out,I immediately thought,UH-OH,It was a State Trooper.When He pulled over,I wondered what was going to Happen? He asked Me for a Piece of Identification,I told Him,all I had was My Draft Card,He said, that will do.Then He asked Me,How much Money I had on Me,I said,about $30,but,I had sent some Money to some Friends in New York City.Well,He said,I am Arresting You for Vagrancy,I needed at Least $75 on Me,in the State of Utah.Now,what Happens to Me next will Amaze You,as much as it did Me.He told Me to get in the Front Seat,because,We were going to the only County Judge they had,and, He was 20miles Down the Road.He thought,since I was'nt Acting like a Smart Ass,He did'nt see any reason for Me to be Sitting in the Backseat,after all,it is Very Cramped back there.When We pulled into a Small Restaurant,I thought He was going to get us some Coffee,or,something.He told Me to come with Him,We went through the Backdoor of the Place,He said, Judge,I have a Vagrant here,where do you want Him to Sit? Well,the Man He called "JUDGE",was Washing the Restaurants' Dishes.Then, He reached over and,Picked Up a Long Soup Ladel,He Banged it on the Stainless Steel Counter,and said,Moab City Court,was in Session.I kept REAL QUIET,but,all I could Think About was,what in the Hell was Happening? I even carefully Pinched Myself to see if this was a Bad Dream.Well,it was'nt.He Sentenced Me to 10 Days,or,a $100fine.Since I had only $30,I guess I have to serve the 10 Days.Courts'Adjourned.After the Kangaroo Court,the State Trooper told Me We would be going to Moab,but,We would Eat First.The Dinner was Great to say the least.We had Steak,with Baked Potato,and,a Very Good Cole Slaw,with Coffee.The Trooper said Moab was 3o Miles down the Road directly across from the Judges' Restaurant.When We got underway,He started telling Me about Moabs Jail,it was in the Basement of the Sheriffs'House.The Sheriff was part Apache and,part White,there was One Inmate already in the Jail,He was serving a Six-Month Sentence for being Drunk in the Public,and,Cussing everybody out.This Inmate by the way,was 17yrs.Old.Well,when We got to the Jail,the Sheriff was already Drunk,and,Pretty Damn Mad that the Trooper Messed Up His Evening.He threw the Keys to the Trooper,and,said to put Him in the Cell across from the Kid.When We got Downstairs,the Trooper gave Me a Pack of Cigs.,and,told Me not to Bug the Sheriff,because,when he was Drinking,He did not like being put upon.I told the Trooper not to Worry,Iwas'nt about to say anything.The next Day I gave the Sheriffs One Deputy enough Money to Buy Me a Carton of Marlboro Box Cigarrettes.The Kid across from Me,worked at the Sand Lot a Half Day.The Sand was of the type for Concrete,It was the Main Business that Moab had at that time.The Tourists' did'nt start coming until a Couple Years later,that, Moab became a Famous Place to Film Old West,Cowboy,and Indians Movies.Back to Me and,the Jail,I had done 3 Days when The Sheriff,Half Drunk again,came Downstairs,and,Told Me to get My Stuff Ready because,He was throwing Me OUT.Thats right,"THROWING ME OUT".Then He Made it back upstairs,and,called the Judge to have that Trooper come and,Get Me OUT of His Jail.It took the Trooper about 30 Minutes to get there,but,when He did, He did'nt Waste any Time in getting Me Out of there.Later, He asked Me what I had done to make Him so Damn Mad? I said, NOTHING,I did NOTHING.WhenWe got to the Judges Place,the Waitress,who was the Judges Wife,gave Me a Nice Big Bowl of Lime Sherbet.The Judge told Me that He had Talked to a Trucker about giving Me a ride,He said,Sure,He was going to Denver.I said,that would be Great.I did'nt think I'd Elaborate anymore than that,I was already wondering what People would think when I told them about the Only Memory I had about "MOAB UTAH". LATER RED

I hav'nt done anything for a couple of days,because,I have had so many Memories coming at Me,that,I had not Remembered,or,Did Not want to remember.Since 1980,My Attitude Adjustment,has been a 100% turnaround.It's Very Humbling.When I was watching The Daytona 500 Introduction,The National Guard was Marching Into view with The Colors,and,Had a Good DECENT Singer,do the National Anthem,I Lost It,a Friend of Mine,and,His Wife were all taking it in,when Patty looked over in My direction,and,saw the Tears in My Eyes,She said to her Husband,Oh My God Bruce,Bobby's got Tears in His Eyes.Now,Believe it or Not,That is When I started to Believe I was Seeing LIGHT at the End of that TUNNEL.You See,the One thing You CAN NOT Do on the Streets, is Show that type of Emotion.The Streets are Hard,and, Relentless,there is No Room for HUMAN EMOTIONS,You show You have them, they will come down on You like the World Trade Towers.

The other night I described a Drug Deal Proposition in New York City.I have received some Comments in My e-mail telling Me,that I was Full of B--- S---.One of the Adjustments'I have done,is,No More Lies.I Do Not have a reason to LIE.I am not being PAID to Bare My Past to the Public.There is not One Person,Pardner,Friend,Love Interest,or,Asshole that is ALIVE Today,that I knew Then.The Last One,Ski was His Name,was HIGH on CRANK one night,when,He got involved in a Game He saw on "THE DEER HUNTER".Ski was always doing Crazy Stuff when He got Wired.Speed,always makes a Person think they have an "S" on their Chest,in Ski it meant STUPID.Anyway,back to the situation,He was BETTING $5 a Spin on an Old Detective 38 Special,on His Second Turn,Ski,met His MAKER,about an Inch behind His Right Ear.By the way,to add more Insult to Himself,He,and,Whoever Else was there,it Happened in The Bathroom of The Most Filthy Bar in Hollywood Calif.The Cockroaches even avoided that Bar.It is 11:30PM,I am going to Bed. LATER RED

One of My Pals called Me at My Apt.,and,said to meet Him at the Central Park Lake,where they rented the Row Boats,the Picnic Table to the Right of the Backdoor of that Building.I said,See You There.To get a Call like that,from Him,meant only One Thing,Setting Up a Drug Buy.
When He Started telling Me about the Set-up,I just about Fell Out of My Seat.I asked Him to say again,Who was going to be our Connection,I still Wondered if I was Dreaming.First of all,I did not know that the Welfare Dept.,Had a Narcotics Division.Well,as it turned out,the Connect Worked in that Division.When I asked Him what Drugs He would be able to Get,The Quantity,and,the Price.First,He started talking about "BARBITURATES",Nembutal,Seconal,Tuinal,They would be in a Sealed Clear Plastic Bag,Quantity,a Thousand Count,with a USP,Yellow Sealed Bag.Cost,Nembutal $65,Seconal $65, Tuinals $75.They would Sell on the Street,Nembutal(YELLOWS)at 6 Per Roll $3,the same with Seconal(REDS),Tuis 4Per Roll $3.On Uppers, He could get Dexadrine,Dexamil,Benzadrine,Disoxin,Bi-Phetamine T-20s,and,T-50s.He could'nt get USP Cocaine,or,Methamphetamine Hydrochloride.That did'nt matter to much to Me,because,I could go out to a Country Feed Store,and,get a 5 to 50lb.,bag of Chicken Feed,the kind of Feed they gave to the Egg laying Chickens.That Type of Chicken Feed Consisted of 95% Methamphetamine,and,5% Chicken Nutrients.Cost would be about $10-$25 a Bag, depending on Size of Bag.I never bothered with "HEROIN",OTHER People, took care of that,and,I did not like the Stuff.The Type of Person that messed with that Drug,would Steal From Their Mothers. More Later RED

When I ended last night,I said, I would toss and turn, I did.During the Vietnam War, there was a lot of Demonstrations'of All Types going on all over this Country.A few got Deadly, for Instance, KENT STATE,that was a Real Travesty.The Troops that were used there,were about as Jittery,and, Scared as they could be,I do'nt think anybody figured out WHO did the Shooting.More than likely,the Person,or,Persons did'nt know either,It just Happened.SUBJECT CLOSED.
Personally, I remember another Deadly Incident in New York City.It happened at The Allied Chemical Building,at Times Square.I had just left the Subway,when I heard someone say,What is He Pouring on Himself? At hearing that,I looked where He was pointing.Across the Street,directly in front of about 100 or so People this Guy,with Long Hair,and,a White Sheet, Wrapped like a Toga around Him,was, Pouring what appeared to be a Watery Colored Fluid all over Himself,He even Drank some of it,not much, but,He Acted like it did'nt taste good.Then,before anyone could Stop Him,He lit a Lighter.There was a quick FOOOOM type of noise with a Bluish,and,Orange Colored Flame,that Immediately covered Him,and,part of the Sidewalk He was Sitting on.Seconds later,He seemed to be trying to say something,then, another FOOOM,but, this time,the Flame came from His Open Mouth.The part that He Drank caught Fire.Then, He started Emitting this Horrible, Squealing Noise,It was tantamount to the Famous Screaming,Janet Leigh did in "PSYCHO".By that time,the Smell of His Hair,and,Skin started Hitting us across the Street.If, some of You Do Read this Account,know what a Burning Body Smells like,You do not need to be told about the Odor,to those who have never done so,I can only say, When You do,You will Remember it for the Rest of Your Days,It is that Bad.I went back underground,and,caught the E-Train to the Village(GREENWICH),that is,and,Toked on a Joint to try and,clear My Head.I had Copped a New Strain of Weed,called,"JAMAICAN REDBUD".Very Good Stuff back then.On the Subject of DEATH,in New York City,there is ONE more that was Particularly,and,Sad.On Third Avenue,on the East Side.54th,and,3rd to be exact.There was a "ROOKIE" Beat Officer that hadn't Lost His Softshell yet,In otherwards,was a Nice Cop,that only wanted to be thought of,as a Good,and,Fair Officer.Anyway,He was Walking towards 54th,from 55th and,3rd,when He and a few other People,Me included,heard a Car that was laying down a Large Amount of Rubber,coming toward 3rd Ave.Well,He held Up His Hand for the Car to Stop.Remember what I said about how He wanted to be known as a Good,and,Fair Cop? When He bent down to ask the Driver,Why,He was in such a Hurry,The Driver FIRED 6 SHOTS Point
Blank into His FACE,then Laughed,and,Hauled Ass toward 2nd Avenue,and,54th Street.Well,there just Happened to be a Two Manned Squad Car at,54th,and,2nd Avenue,They heard the Gunshots,and,Heard the Drivers' Car coming towards Them.When,they Stopped the Car,They had there Guns'Out,Pointing right at Him,since the Gun He used on the Rookie was a 6 Shot Revolver,He did'nt get a Chance to Fire on Them.About 4 of us started to go down to where they stopped Him,but,an Officer told Us to get back to 3rd Avenue,because,the Detectives' were going to want to ask what We knew about the Shooting.Now, in those Days,I really did'nt like Talking to Cops very much,Especially Detectives.Before I left,I noticed a Pretty Violent, Scuffle going on in the Guys'Car,I looked at One of the Guys that were with Me,and,I said,How Much do You Want to bet He Does'nt Make it to the 17th PCT.? In New York City,and,Chicago,ILL.,You Shoot a Cop,You are in the Deepest,Darkest Tub of SHIT You could NEVER Imagine.Especially a Nice,Fair,ROOKIE. LATER, RED

In the News lately,there Has been a Bunch of Cases of Fathers,Uncles,and,Children, Abusing other Children,as in Sexual,or,Murder.When I was out on the streets,especially New Yorks Times Square,42nd Street,between 7th,and,8th Avenue,the amount of Runaway Kids was UN-COUNTABLE.Now,I'm talking about the 60s to mid 70s.I was there when they were Filming "MIDNIGHT COWBOY",when the Studio people were out trying to get some of the street kids to be scene fillers,or, Extras,most of the Runaways,did exactly that,Ranaway.The Runaways usually, wound up, Hungry enough, to do something they probably never thought they would have to do,EVER.In talking with people today, I have Noticed the Situation I am Talking About,is Never brought up,and,When I mention that Situation, They FREEZE,There Mouths Drop Open Wide enough to Drive a BIG Truck into.Do ANY of YOU, know what a Human Being Sounds Like when they HIT a Concrete Sidewalk from 23 Floors Up? As I came Out of a Hotel on 43rd Street, I turned Left walking to the Port Authority for the Subway, I got about 30ft. Down the sidewalk, when I heard what sounded like a LARGE PUMPKIN HIT the Sidewalk. A Lady Screamed,a Man Threw Up at the Curb,Me, I had seen Death to Many Times already. I just STARED,Thinking,My God, That was a Young Man about 18-19yrs.Old. There was a Note on the Roof, Stating, that He was NO LONGER a MAN, because He had GONE TO BED with a MAN for $20,so,He could EAT.The Same Scenario Plays the Same way in all the Big Citys',of, America.DEATH, Has so many Cruel FACES,but, the Death of a KID,under that Face,is UN-FORGETABLE. Well,Even though I will Toss,and, Turn in Bed Tonight. GOODNIGHT RED